[Yes, well. At least Ryoji wasn't breathing on his ear anymore. That was enough of an accomplishment. Enough to make Joshua a little more comfortable with this all again.
He isn't surprised in the least that Ryoji has wanted to do this. Ever since Ryoji's confession to him, he hasn't truly been surprised by any of it. Surprised by the timing of certain acts, perhaps, or the fact that Ryoji would attempt them at all, but not the acts themselves, deep down.
... Ryoji's hand playing with his hair, though. That's a little surprising. If only because that, too, comes with its own share of memories. Yet another thing his mother used to do. Another comforting thing...
Joshua's eyes slipped closed, hands tensing just slightly on Ryoji's back, but only for a second.]
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He isn't surprised in the least that Ryoji has wanted to do this. Ever since Ryoji's confession to him, he hasn't truly been surprised by any of it. Surprised by the timing of certain acts, perhaps, or the fact that Ryoji would attempt them at all, but not the acts themselves, deep down.
... Ryoji's hand playing with his hair, though. That's a little surprising. If only because that, too, comes with its own share of memories. Yet another thing his mother used to do. Another comforting thing...
Joshua's eyes slipped closed, hands tensing just slightly on Ryoji's back, but only for a second.]
... why me? Out of all the people here...
[... he doesn't deserve anything like this.]