[Who knew, maybe it wouldn't be that hard for him to adapt, after all. But he would never know unless he actually tried, right?]
Ah, well...
[Okita was honestly clueless about this, wasn't he? It seemed like he had to explain this, after all. ... Which would be a bit hard, considering, but...]
This... wasn't about the cutting or the blood drinking. It's the closeness that I enjoyed. And... [Ryoji looked away, looking really embarrassed all of a sudden.] ...the feeling of your tongue on my skin, mostly. Um... you see, I had no idea about this myself at first, either. But you made me realize that my hands are kind of... sensitive. A lot.
I felt guilty with all of it... but I still wanted more. So when I tried to cut my neck back at the time...
[Oh wow, this almost felt like some kind of confession. Ryoji suddenly felt like running away somewhere.]
I-I'm sorry. Just... don't think too much on it. It doesn't really matter anymore...
[Where were they again?]
That almost sounds like something I would do, haha. [In different circumstances, though, perhaps.] But if he... well, betrayed you after saying something like that, there probably needed to be some kind of reason behind it, right? I think you two should talk. ... Misunderstandings usually come from things that are left unsaid.
...Do you remember that one event when people couldn't resist kissing each other? I think you saw it, too, since it got caught up on the network. With the previous Riku-kun and Joshua-senpai...
[And that was still back at the time when Ryoji thought he didn't have that kind of feelings for anyone. So all of it was a bit confusing, to say the least...]
Because of who I really am. [An easy answer there.] I have enough dark things on the inside already. I don't need them on the outside, too.
[Was this weird? Did any of this make any sense, even?]
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[Who knew, maybe it wouldn't be that hard for him to adapt, after all. But he would never know unless he actually tried, right?]
Ah, well...
[Okita was honestly clueless about this, wasn't he? It seemed like he had to explain this, after all. ... Which would be a bit hard, considering, but...]
This... wasn't about the cutting or the blood drinking. It's the closeness that I enjoyed. And... [Ryoji looked away, looking really embarrassed all of a sudden.] ...the feeling of your tongue on my skin, mostly. Um... you see, I had no idea about this myself at first, either. But you made me realize that my hands are kind of... sensitive. A lot.
I felt guilty with all of it... but I still wanted more. So when I tried to cut my neck back at the time...
[Oh wow, this almost felt like some kind of confession. Ryoji suddenly felt like running away somewhere.]
I-I'm sorry. Just... don't think too much on it. It doesn't really matter anymore...
[Where were they again?]
That almost sounds like something I would do, haha. [In different circumstances, though, perhaps.] But if he... well, betrayed you after saying something like that, there probably needed to be some kind of reason behind it, right? I think you two should talk. ... Misunderstandings usually come from things that are left unsaid.
...Do you remember that one event when people couldn't resist kissing each other? I think you saw it, too, since it got caught up on the network. With the previous Riku-kun and Joshua-senpai...
[And that was still back at the time when Ryoji thought he didn't have that kind of feelings for anyone. So all of it was a bit confusing, to say the least...]
Because of who I really am. [An easy answer there.] I have enough dark things on the inside already. I don't need them on the outside, too.
[Was this weird? Did any of this make any sense, even?]