Ryoji Mochizuki (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
the13tharcana) wrote2020-11-05 07:17 am
the13tharcana) wrote2020-11-05 07:17 am
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IC contact post for Adstringendum
"Hello, you have reached the PCD of Ryoji Mochizuki!
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[Video] yay xD
[And considering, it was probably better that way, but everyone knew how Ryoji usually learned his lessons by now.
The last comment makes him stare at Souji, though. Just what...]
How I acted about it? ...What do you mean by that?
[And yes, he knew. They were both messed up in more ways than one, and while Ryoji was still completely accepting of weird things in other people, he was becoming more self-conscious in regards to those in himself as of late, for whatever unexplained reason.]
[Video]
[In the TYL-event. The event that had driven him to madness. The event where Raven had to go through with her promise. The event after which Ami had left him.]
How should I put it? You were... always so overly eager about it?
[Don't get self-conscious about it, Ryoji. It's just part of you. Socializing with normal people can be a bitch sometimes.]
[Video]
[Because that's what it sounded like, from the way Okita had put it.]
Overly eager about it, huh? Was I, really? ... I guess there's some truth in it when people say that sadness is actually easier to hide than happiness, haha.
[He'll get over it at some point again. He should, considering how many people around here were actually 'normal.']
[Video]
[This was actually something he would never admit if he was still in Adstringendum. Ryoji would probably end up blaming himself too much, in a way.]
Yes. Do I have to remind you of that time where you almost ended up killing yourself over this?
[He says that teasingly, but he means the time where Ryoji wanted to cut his own neck.]
[Video]
[And likewise, Okita. It's not actually a surprise for him, and all in all, Ryoji stopped blaming himself about that longer while ago by now.]
I already told you that I'm sorry about that once before, though. All I can do is hope that you've forgiven me about it. As unfortunate as it all was, I am still convinced that the Animus needed to manipulate our wills during the whole thing. We shouldn't take anything that happened back then that much to heart, should we?
[And well... as Souji mentions the last part, Ryoji turns his gaze elsewhere, suddenly feeling a bit embarrassed.]
It would be kind of hard to forget... but I wasn't intending to kill myself there, you know.
[Video]
[Perhaps other people would find it surprising, but Souji really didn't. It didn't really make the fact that Ryoji left without a word to anyone less painful, even if Souji understood the reasons why he did that.]
I'm not mad at you about it. You probably didn't see another way out anymore. I'm not really sure if they manipulated our wills, though.
[Because everything had felt so natural, like it would come inevitably that way. The fact that Ami would abandon him if they ever got together... and when they talked about it afterwards she couldn't really deny it either, couldn't say that it won't happen that way, couldn't tell him why she did that. Not taking that to heart was difficult - because he had done just that and had withdrawn himself and just sticked to the people he knew he could be comfortable with.]
It would be sad if you had. I just wonder sometimes if you really know what you are doing - even if you are supposed to have such great knowledge.
[He says this teasingly as well.]